How do I keep motivated when things are not going my way?
This is a brutally open and honest post. For the past couple of months, I have found myself losing the drive and motivation to get up, get ready and accomplish the goals I’ve set for myself.
My efforts seem futile. What’s the point of continuing with (traineeships, research etc.) when I have been struggling to match into a residency program for YEARS in Canada and the US. Taken all the required board exams, stacked up experience in recent clinical experience, recent LORs, clinical research, volunteer work etc.. Used my parents and my husband to pay for EVERYTHING and yet I am still here in an unpaid traineeship and preparing to apply again for…..what exactly? Another year of a failed Match? Why am I not a good enough candidate?
My thoughts are horrible aren’t they?
Instead, I should be thankful!
- I made a major transition in my life in 2017 to move from Ontario to BC for a clinical traineeship position to keep up to date with my skills and knowledge.
- I found wonderful selfless doctors take me on as a trainee to teach me (they don’t get paid taking me as a trainee and I actually slow them down at work).
- These same doctors go out of their way to help me prepare for exams and help me connect with other physicians to strengthen my application for the next residency match.
- I have patients who are so kind as to let me question them and poke and prod them for my benefit.
How do I keep motivated?
- Talk it out, network – I talk it out with my understanding husband, family, friends and mentors. By speaking to people you may get new ideas on what to do next or how to approach or tackle the next hurdle. Be careful who you speak with and ask advice from. They should understand the situation you are in, otherwise, you may just hear advice that will hurt you rather than help.
- Make a change – I realized that the clinic was getting monotonous for me and plan to work as a trainee in the hospital. I continue with different clinical research projects so I can meet new doctors and help out with various projects. This keeps my brain stimulated and interested. No other field interests me quite like medicine.
- Sign up for the next challenge – I signed up for another exam. This helps me work toward a date and gives me a sense of purpose.
- Have hobbies, participate in activities – I love hiking, it takes me outdoors and keeps my mind and body active. I also love painting and taking care of my plants. These activities give me a sense of purpose and it keeps me busy so that I don’t mope and complain about my life too much!
- Continue to believe and keep going – this one is hard but I make myself believe that everything that I am going through right now, the ups and downs, the exams, traineeships, interviews, match days will all amount to something (hopefully a residency match!).
I’ll end it here for now.
For those of you who are reaching out to me and letting me know that my website is inspirational, it means SO much to me! I love knowing that my little blog is reaching out and helping you 🙂 Let’s keep at it guys, we can do this!
I will leave you with a motivational video I came across on YouTube…
Peace, Love and Happiness Always!